Muscle weighs more than fat. This is a fact. I like facts because they can not be undone. Facts are true. Facts are honest. Honesty is hard to find in this world of “fake it until you make it.”

What happens if you never make it? What if you keep faking it, while hoping that you will make it, only to wake up one day at the end of your life and realize that everything you lived was a lie? You never were the person you thought you would become. What if you die trying?

I have been many people in my one lifetime. I have been a skinny person. I have been a fat person. I have been a happy person. I have been a person that is morbidly depressed. I have been a generous person and I have been greedy person. I have been a loving person and I have been hateful. I have been a person that is intoxicated, elevated, high. I have been a person that is sober and it was sobering. I have been so many people that my identity could easily be confused. I am grateful to have a strong and introspective core.

“When it comes to keeping your body’s muscles fit, you often hear the expression “use it or lose it.”

Yet most people don’t know that your body’s controlling organ – your brain – is similar to a muscle, too. In fact, keeping your brain “fit” with plenty of mental stimulation is a great way to support your healthy cognition, mental function and memory throughout your life.

I value intelligence more than any other attribute until I compare it to health. I know a lot of really smart people who live lives and make choices that are super unhealthy. There can be no mind without a body. I am truly in awe of people who are able to master both; mind and body at peak performance and optimal health.

I have been neglecting my own health lately. Business is booming and I am building mine with sweat equity and a strict budget. I am able to account for every dollar but don’t ask me where the time goes. I live from deadline to deadline and right now that means I am glued to my computer, tuning out all life but work, until I realize that it’s eight o’clock at night and I would rather have a glass of wine and go to bed than find the energy to hit the gym.

I do not like to go to the gym in the morning because my mind is fresh at that time of day. I wake up ready to create, already thinking about what I would write, if I had time to write, and then I start working on what needs to be done. I have editing to do. I have books to design. I have slideshows to create and pictures to order. I have emails to answer and phone calls to make. I have photo shoots booked and clients coming to order. I have orders that need to be packaged and accounts that need to be settled. I have social media to manage for more than one business because that is another business I am building and then…


I do not like to go to the gym in the evening because I am tired and in need of wine. I am currently a fat person who has not been able to get into her jeans for more than a year now but that’s OK by society because LuLaroe leggings are trending and fat shaming is out. Muscle weighs more than fat so I don’t really need to bother with the scale. I know that my body composition has changed to reflect the sum of my choices. I know that if I invest in myself, in my health, I will have more time to live and I will be happier while I live them. I will be more attractive because I will be living the truth of a balanced and active life. I will not be a person who is glued to her computer working, always working, and then working some more. Who wants to wants to work all the time?

I do. I love what I do for a living. It’s like a good book I can’t put down. My business consumes me and I let it. It’s hard for me to do anything else and yet I get jealous when I see how happy and active other people are. I scroll through Facebook and see people on vacation. People at the gym. People spending time with their kids. People being lazy and leisurely.

I want to be those people and yet my choice comes back to this business until balance doesn’t seem to matter anymore and fitness doesn’t either. I know a lot of smart people who struggle with choice. I’ve been choosing to do what I love to the neglect of what I need to do in order to maintain the love. I have not been staying true to what I know about success. Success is a formula. There are rules to be followed. Pay yourself first. Pay you debts after that. Take care of yourself first. You are your best investment.


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