LOVE IN THE NICK OF TIME

What do I want? I already have it. I explained that to the man I love this evening as he took time to be interested where he hadn’t been interested before. This time that is different.This time that he loves me. I don’t know what turns a man’s heart to love a woman, but I […]

UNBREAK MY HEART: RELATIONSHIP STATUS #complicated

I gave him my heart. Yes. It was an easy sacrifice, a necessary evil if you will. Of course, I trusted that he would cherish the gift of it. I think the point you miss is understanding value. How could he possibly know my value? In the beginning we are but skin, hair, and teeth. […]

HAPPILY EVER AFTER: THERE ARE MANY PATHS TO THE SAME END

Things are going really, really, REALLY, good for me right now. I’m emphasizing because I remember some months back being a different story. Three months back I was crying my eyes out with a broken heart. We broke up again. This time for good. Drama much? I do not know why I let myself suffer […]

FOOTBALL SEASON BEGINS: THE END OF MONTH ONE

We broke up just before the fitness contest began. By we, I mean that once upon a time I had a boyfriend that I was pretty serious about. One month later I am ten pounds lighter and starving for the attention I once had. I’d like to feast on some cuddles and wouldn’t it be […]

MY BODY IS MY BUSINESS: Day One #TeamAmber #CoachErin

7:24 pm. The Oxygen Magazine fitness contest has begun and I feel alone and empty. I feel stupid for even wanting to win and I do want to win the cover of the magazine. Then I ask myself if I am willing to do what it will take to succeed. Then I wonder if I […]

FAKE THE FIRST DAY AND F*CK THE NEXT

“Are your allergies bothering you?” he asked when he realized my face was swollen. He grabbed my shoulders, using his finger to tip my chin up and into the light. He flinched to see the pain he met there. “I am having a hard time today,” I said pulling away from him as he pulled […]

IF I THINK YOU ARE SEXY I MIGHT PEE MYSELF

January 2013 “He looks Italian…” Tara was the first to spot him when we left body pump. With all due respect to her boyfriend, whom she loves very much and never stops talking about. This guy was just made to be looked at and I had missed him entirely. My friends usually need to tell […]