BE THANKFUL FOR YOUR BROKEN HEART

I asked God for answers, of course you know I did. I asked him why he did not allow me the simplest gift. “Dear God, my heart is simple. I am most humble. Please God, please let me have my one person,my true person, the person who is meant to be mine love.” It’s like […]

FAKE THE FIRST DAY AND F*CK THE NEXT

“Are your allergies bothering you?” he asked when he realized my face was swollen. He grabbed my shoulders, using his finger to tip my chin up and into the light. He flinched to see the pain he met there. “I am having a hard time today,” I said pulling away from him as he pulled […]

WHY BOTHER TRYING

I feel frozen. I’m sitting here trying to get my thoughts in line with my focus. I am focused. What am I focused on? Right now I am focused on the pit I feel in my belly and insignificance. I feel like my life doesn’t matter. I know in the pit, the pit of my […]

I CAN TEACH YOU HOW TO BE HAPPY FOR FREE

My boyfriend is reading over my shoulder as I type this remembering. He is charming and gentle, reminding me, “Amber, You can’t be scowling as you write about HAPPY.” I looked up at him to grin sheepishly, “You are right my love. I was just remembering how small she felt curled next to me. She […]